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Again as i sit and ponder and fade thinking of all the decisions i've made in the day in the past think of decisions i have to make down the line. It makes me wonder Why try? Givin up is so much easier. But fight....? Keep fighting u say? For what? So i can continue to screw up? It seems that every decision i've made the past 6 maybe 7 years has turned out... HORRIBLE! But never right away. With most decisions, things turn out good then collapse like marbles in a wet paper towel. Like my life but like i've said before i'm good at identifying problems but not fixing them! Like my future.... i mean i have no idea what i

Out the window i stare thinkin jus maybe if i do long enough u might be there Do u really care? i ask myself that everyday.... ponder ponder ponder Does she really care? That question honestly haunts me, like the fact that death is inevitable. I tell myself she cares. I force it into my concious self that yes she really does care. But yet again i wonder... Does she really care? I know in my heart that i love her, with everything i have and would give anything jus to make her smile. But does she really care? I hurt her when we we're young, but what is love when your young? She hurt herself over me, but was it really worth